Tuesday 19 May 2015
LOVE OF MY LIFE :*
Some People are So perfect in every possible way that ,You cant explain them in words.
That's what i feel about Shah Rukh Khan.My never ending love for you gets more and more everyday.
I wish,I can be like u,Talk like you,But I cant because "Perfection in You Is Just Like Sugar In The Milk".
I wonder,How can Anyone hate on you,Because there is nothing I dislike.Someone Says that When you love someone truly you will always find good about them even in the worst situations..
Yes.I do love you and i dont know why ? If I'll find a reason to love someone that will make my love reasonable.
I think alot about you.You are always with me ,If I am a better person than before then all the credits goes to you.Everything you do is my area of interest.
Whenever anyone talk crap abot you I become rebellious. If this love isnt true,I have never loved anyone.I talk alot alot everything,But when it comes to you,I feel like I'll never stop talking .
That's all I just love you unconditionally and will do always Big Hug Love <3 :*
Good Night
Monday 18 May 2015
NEVER ENDING FIGHTS OF MINE
"No one understands me" This is the ultimate truth,And if I wish something,I will always get opposite of that. Things are not smooth for me even in a better situation. Something is wrong and I will never get to know that looks like all my life,I will wonder what will i do, so that my family will get happy. They are not happy with me, My lifestyle, My thoughts everything i do is wrong for them. I am really disappointed with the fact that "No one understands me" why what's wrong with me. Why i have to explain so much to my parents,obviously they are strict not friendly with me,Thats why they will never get to know the real me. It's weird really it is, when your home feels like a strange place like i have been living with strangers all these years.No one knows me better than my friends. I dont like going to hostel only because of food otherwise maybe that is the best escape for me, Where i can be myself do whatever i feel like doing and i know that no one will judge me by my actions. I can't be living here in group of judgemental people. They have their own reasons for being like this and i have my own existence.
I am just a work in progress with so many hurdles. It's hard really it is when u hate the way
your loved one thinks but just because they are your parents you can't hate them. That's what i do
i hate everyone with narrow thinking except my parents. Hahaha i know cold war has just began
between me and my reasons of existance. So many responsibilities even if i am right i have to bear
with what they think. That's what i can't digest. I don't know what is gonna happen but i hope it will
be better than what it was.
That's all for today love everyone.
PEOPLE AROUND ME
Summer vacations are not about having fun or just going home for me,
Its alot about learning new things about life and How people react to things
and How My parents are in delima of being modern with their roots!!!
It's not that simple ,its complicated as i know i think alot about everything around
me so, I analyzed things and somewhere I know,Its not worth doing but I do think alot.
So here it is I am home and so much marrriages are happening in neighbourhood.
So i got to interact with lots of narrow minded people and even if I dont talk my observation
cant go wrong,And I got to know the real reason behind every problem that a girl faces in
a conservative society.Nothing much is changed here.Girls are treated as if they are object not a human.They are being objectified and this happens to everyone here so, no partiality with me.
Villages are good,poor,pollution free but people with polluted mind live here,16 year old girl is
getting married and she was happy with it. Now, here people dont have sense they can talk crap
right infront of your face and you cant help it, because they are BUJURG. I was angry when some
uncle of mine commented that "My father have to pay for our marriages" you mean seriously
Now,i am being measured by how much dowry my in-laws will get.No i am not a object so, dont give me a market value. I am just a simple girl with a simple dreams dont spoil it by being rude and offensive because i dont want to think alot. And this society sucks #PoorPeople #PoorMentality# HypocriteSociety #NothingToDoWithIt.
"I hate people who is judgemental and Who dont know real meaning of life, Marriages are for happiness not just the sake of doing it . Marriages are part of life. I agree but its not life.
people come to earth people live here, In between they get married.
DEATHS :(
Deaths take alot from their loved ones. And i encountered one recently this summer.
I am not that emotional according to me i can control my feelings, I dont express that
much but recently i felt the harsh truth of being a living person or animal or thing is death.
And how it feels when someone die who was important to you. I have seen so many of them
but this one was the hardest to expect. I was not sad i was in shock or trouma where everything
was going in my head. I was so selective about my words when i was consoling her because i felt
that it hurts much much more than i have ever thought. There was a fear that one day its going
to happen with me too,What will I do?because I am so emotional about everyone I love, I cant imagine they will disappear all of sudden. I think this is the biggest fear of my life now a days, I dont want to loose anyone. All that was in my mind throughout the journey. I came back home because,I didn't want to regret like Aahu did. These things are like i will never get over may his soul RIP and I
will find peace in this virtual life. :)
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